A new era...

Wow. I'm officially done the last project I did from being self-employed full-time. Since about January 2002, I've been doing video work fulltime and essentially worrying about money the whole time. Since getting this software company job, I've been working 2 jobs as I try to finish up all the work I booked before knowing I was going to be seeking other employment.

I wouldn't consider my video business a failure because I definitely made enough to get by. But the money I was making couldn't justify all the work I put into it and all the extra stress with not knowing if the next month was going to be a lean one or not. I essentially worried from September through March wondering if the next summer I would book enough projects. I somehow managed it but it was truly stressful.

Now here I am with a dayjob that I enjoy, that I can "turn off" in the evenings and weekends. Which means the things I've been wanting to spend more time on in the last couple years are possible, without me feeling guilty about it.

I'll have to decide by this september if I want to be a fulltime student for 3 semesters and finish my Ed. degree, or if I want to plug away in the tech sector for a while and make some cash. Actually. as I write this, it makes sense to wait until my daughter is old enough for grade 1 before doing fulltime school again... But if I had a real say in the matter, I'd make my money with the music stuff I'm doing. I thought 2005 would be my year, and in a lot of ways it was, but my prayers were answered in a roundabout way. We'll see what comes next. All I know is, I'm done doing videos for a while (I have 1 booked for this summer, which is manageable), and I can now focus on the things I've ignored for a while. Friends, family, music, and myself.

I just had a Doogie Howser moment.